meow, you only called me beautiful after i told you...

you only called me beautiful after i told you “hot” and “sexy” didn’t make me feel good. i really wish i wasnt so stupid as to think for one second that someone like you, as beautiful and great as you, would want someone like me. sometimes i feel like dying. i dont feel like anyone will want me. im not worth it at all. i was stupid. i am stupid. to think id be good enough for anyone that i would want. im nothing. i deserve nothing. im worthless. i wished you wanted me. just me. i felt something when we first met. but it wasnt what you felt, as i know now. i wish i didnt misinterpret it. im so stupid.