May 2011
4 posts
you only called me beautiful after i told you “hot” and “sexy” didn’t make me feel good. i really wish i wasnt so stupid as to think for one second that someone like you, as beautiful and great as you, would want someone like me. sometimes i feel like dying. i dont feel like anyone will want me. im not worth it at all. i was stupid. i am stupid. to think id be good...
i have low self esteem and no confidence. i hate my body, and i hate everything about myself. i hate how i can care about people that couldn’t care less about me. i hate that i believe there is any good left in anyone. stupid, right ? this World has gone to shit and i’m apart of it. i can’t do anything to change it, my efforts make no difference. i hate that i still try at anything and...
i just want to feel wanted.
it really aches how badly i want you and how you just don’t want me. you’re done using me and don’t have to tell me what i want to hear anymore. i don’t know why i do this to myself. i wonder why my confidence is so fucking low. i can’t just “oh well” it. because it really does fucking hurt. i’m so worthless. why am i here.
April 2011
8 posts
happy birthday. wish i could say more than that, but you’re probably celebrating with other girls and having a good time. i’m not in that picture, so. yeah.
i never believed in love at first sight
and then i met you. i don’t know what it is, i just felt this connection. and i think that’s why i’m so weird about this. i want you so bad in everyway that i’ll settle for any part of you. i’ve never felt this way before. i’ve never felt so unsettled happily. why is the World so mysterious. and i’ll probably never see you again. what a way to break a...
i’m not the kind of girl to grovel, and it’s obvious you really don’t want much to do with me or if you do you’ve a funny way of showing it. so, see ya. that was interesting.
you are confusing the fuck out of me. i really which i was something more than a fucking booty call…but i’ll take what i can get i guess…
i just want you to talk to me. i don’t give a fuck if we get all fiubjcbjhbfkfh. i just want you to see me.
i still wish life would’ve let go of my karma and let mebe happy. see if something was there. but it’s clear you’ve nothing towards me. you’re so great, and i’m not apparently. why do i have to be so annoying or something. i don’t deserve anything.
i dont know if this is the right term. but im just really heart broken right now. i dont know what happened. sunday it was nice. and all of a sudden you just stopped. this just really fucking sucks. i just want to know what i did. i mean i had probably said too much. but i knew you didnt really give a shit when you just came back with a “haha okay”. something so personal and scary to...
i just really wish you would text me. it’s unrealistic for me to think you’d sweep me off my feet or anything and we don’t really know each other. i knew going into it it would be hard. and i got attached, we hardly even know each other. we’re so different it wouldnt have worked anyways right…i just really cant believe i let myself throw myself at you. and it took a...
November 2010
1 post
i dont know. i just feel like i dont matter to anyone who matters to me. i was what i considered to be a pretty significant part of the music scene while i was in it, and the only reason anyone ever talked to me was because they thought i was hot or something. and now that i dont look like all the other girls, im not as pretty at all. i even got tattoos partly for the music scene. and i get no...